Ok so it seems like I didn't do an official resolutions post in January. I talked about it, but didn't because I was drama-ing with Melissa and Mark and I don't know what else. I'm sure I wrote a list in a notebook, but my bookshelf has about twenty notebooks on it, and I don't feel like going through them. Actually, I just looked through one ( Read more... )

I'm so unsettled. Mark is at poker and there is nothing I want to do. There are things I could do, but nothing I feel like doing. And I want to stay awake for as long as possible because I don't want to wake up at 5am again. I just watched an episode of Smallville, but I'm not interested enough at the moment to watch another one. I was thinking of ( Read more... )

After all the drama from the other girls and hooking up and being the biggest slut out for no reason what so ever, my boyfriend and I decided to explore my sexuality and relationship ideals again. Again it was a girl that he worked with, but she was older, bisexual and more experienced. She was the cause of many good times, many tough times, many ( Read more... )

Motivation does not do well when paired with indecision.

But that's the problem; I want to do something, but I don't know what I want to do. If someone could tell me something to do than I'd do it, but I can't for the life of me pick something out myself. My to-do list is huge, but I can dismiss every item on it with an excuse for why I shouldn't do ( Read more... )

So I had all good intentions of coming back and finishing the entry I wrote last night, but now I feel like I have a different perspective. I was also pretty tired last night. After I got off I walked up to pick Mark up from work because he didn't have an umbrella or his car, so I walked up and bought him an umbrella and we walked home in the rain ( Read more... )

So Mark is at poker.

I just watched Loving Annabelle.

I'm lonely.

This is the lesbian, single half of my mind and heart talking.

I feel like I'm going crazy, especially with Precious. I mean, I like her, but I don't know if she likes me. I don't even know if she thinks about me. All I had was that one night where we texted and sent photos, and I want ( Read more... )

I have been so tired lately. Not so much during the day, but last night I went to bed at 9:30pm, after doing nothing all day. It was a good thing too because I had to start work early this morning.

Yesterday was a good day. I spent the day talking to Drena on MSN, and we had some really great conversations. Even though I spent all day talking I ( Read more... )

I got a note from a close OpenDiary friend after my last entry that just said "you are awesome!" and I tell you what, I'm feeling pretty damn fucking awesome right now. It's 9:24pm and I've spent about the last hour texting Precious and sending her photos and getting photos sent back. Yes, take it back a step there, I do mean raunchy photos. I can' ( Read more... )

Woo. I am on such a natural high at the moment it'd be so funny to be inside my head right now. First up, I did not kiss Precious today. No, I didn't get up the guts to do it, and there wasn't really an opportunity (we didn't go in the dark room at all today!) but what I did get is pretty much just as good.

We talked alot about sex today. It was ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get so inspired. It just sucks that I know that this inspiration never lasts long enough for me to do anything amazing. I'm always tired/busy/lacking energy/not bothered. Today is no different. After watching three Smallville episodes and having a great day with Ally I'm inspired to do something. The trouble is, I don't know what it is ( Read more... )